Thursday, August 25, 2011

My Crazy (wise, sweet, funny) Head And My ♥!!!

At times this crazy head of mine has all these crazy thoughts cropping up! Without having a second thought, giving a second thought to the sprouting thoughts I just go ahead and say things which I shouldn't, things which I should keep to myself.

Sometimes such thoughts of mine are important ones but other times just some silly wild crazy kiddish/babyish thoughts. Then it has me wondering why and from where such thoughts crop up and as a counter response the very same crazy head 'o mine says because of 'this n that', 'such n such', blah blah blah and tries to get a connection, a link to such cropped up thoughts!

The 'crazy head 'o mine is definitely the boss most of the times but when my is given a chance to think it takes the power from the 'crazy head 'o mine' and generates even crazier (more) thoughts! When my ♥ takes rein from the head you can expect not-thought of thoughts! This heart brings forth tears, huge ones!!!

That time I crave for my crazy head and hope and wish so bad it take its position 'being the ever crazier boss' because though crazy it stops my tears and saves me from 'those puffy eyes'. But I tell you, if my head gives even a little attention to my ♥ it becomes stubborn and wants to be the leader. My head then is taken for a ride, roller-coaster ride!

One time my ♥ makes itself in-sync with my 'crazy head', make my head rule (my head smiles then) for a bit but that is my ♥'s tactic. It ever wants to stay and lead my head. Ofcourse my ♥ isn't bad. It is the best when given its own space.

It shows the loveable side of me. I look happy and may be a little pretty too! (smiles) :) But uh-uh my ♥ should be secondary. If I let my ♥ lead than I would become fragile (which I don't want to be).

I was strong, am strong and want to be strong with my heart following my 'crazy (sometimes wise) head silently and ruling may be as and when really needed by my crazy (sometimes sweet) head. That time my head (sometimes funny) and my lovely ♥ is in perfect sync (as if made for each other)...sigh love love love...BIG TIME, mwah!

I can go on and on with thoughts from my head and my ♥ but would love to end it when (now they are in-sync) on a sweet note!
So from my crazy head and my ♥ Love, Hugs and Kisses ...


A Diamond Heart!!!

Can one hate oneself?
I guess sometimes we can.
I believed I had a heart of stone, still does but guess the stone is not hard enough!
I want it to be hard so that it would be impossible to get through me.
I would be protected!
I would not care of things happening to me and around me.
Why is it difficult?
Why must it get softened and not hardened along the way?
Why can't I have a heart of a diamond (they say it is the hardest)?
I would like to have "a diamond" heart"!
So how can I achieve one?
Maybe I can start by hating myself(coz if you can hate yourself then how can you love others?)
So dear K I am turning myself into a diamond, a diamond heart, a heart that is stronger than a stone!

"A Diamond Heart"
  Signed ...

A Diamond Heart (of mine)!

Alone But Not Lonely!

I may be alone but I am not lonely!
NB, LL, TS, BA,CD,JLo,MC, JS etc are there for me as always.
They fill my blue days with smiles.
They make my ♥ happy!
They are and will be my constant companions!
They let me forget my sadness and make me sing with happiness!
I just love them for being there for me though not physically!
So I say I am alone but I am not and can never be lonely!