What am I doing?

Listening to songs I guess (else why do I have my earphones plugged in and Love Story by Taylor Swift on?)

But My Thoughts are not completely in it. I stare at my phone (wishing for it to ring?)

Naah, not in the mood to talk either! Then what is it? Love Story ended. I played it again!

What am I doing? My mind is not in the work at hand either. This vast heaviness is settling in my heart.

What is it? Why this feeling? Today, I don’t think I did any productive work.

Could this be the reason for this feeling I am feeling now?

Umm I don’t think this is quite the reason. As I look around the calendar on my table catch my eyes.

It is Wednesday the 19th of May (God, how fast?). With this comes the realization that days are rushing by (in fact zooming)

My eyes wander and settle on the various stacked files. Can they prove I have done my job well? Hm-mm

Now I am listening to ‘Better in Time’ by Leona Lewis and I wish I had a voice like her (I love singing!)

As I am typing this, my friend barges in and I have to stop typing for a while and talk with her.

My friend leaves me to my work. I open the windows and look out. The sky is clear now!

The breeze is much cooler too because of the rain earlier this morning (I just love the rain!)

I just love watching ‘the drops’ hitting the parched earth and the smell of the earth after it (ahhh!)

The smell, the clean surroundings, the happy grins on the faces of the farmers are the after effects of the rain.

So my love for the rain is immense! Talking about the rain is making me nostalgic now!:)

I used to run out the moment I saw the heaven above crying and feel the drops on my skin.

I would feel so cleansed and stamping my feet in the tiny puddles it had created would make me squeal with laughter.

Sigh! I wish to be that little me again. The blink on the screen brings me back to my present state of “don’t know what I am doing”

The time now is 4.58 pm, should I stay a little longer (for what?) or head home (to?)

The past two days “the wandering cat” who was at my doorstep kept me company.

The furry thing is mighty cute and mighty stubborn! :-) (Don’t know till when it will stay with me!)

The time now is 5:35 pm, and I hope the cat is there waiting for me!

So with that thought I think I might as well head home to my companion (the furry one)

5:44 pm now, I really got to leave, so today my “What am I doing?” status has indeed made me say “What have I done”? (hehehe)

(Author: “my jumbled up (nonsense) thoughts”)