The Change!!!

So often I am left to believe that things happen on its own accord yet at times I feel that I should have known some things that happen in ones life can be controlled and is in our hands. Looking back I feel maybe I left things to happen and take its own shape rather than make it happen according to my whims and fancies.!

If I had done that I feel my life now would have been different, definitely (not that I don't like the life I have now) but I wish to have a little difference!!!

The thought, did I atleast try, gnaws at me and I feel maybe I believed in ''let things happen on its own' too strongly!

 Maybe maybe I did try and change the course of things happening in my life and since I falied to change the 'happening things' I stuck to leaving it on its own! Whatever the reasons now I just feel I should have tried harder, a little harder.

The path I followed led me here (and it is good enough) and I wonder what lies in my path ahead (but this time I am just not going to sit back and watch 'things happening' like a good spectator but stand up and be a part to make paths I should tread on and make things happen according to my wishes!). 

This is The Change I seek!

Luv K

Past Is Past?Live Today? And Tomorow Is Not Yet Born?

Past (even yesterday) is history,it is, but why does one's past keep returning (after certain intervals)? Why can't it remain where it was left? Why does it follow you some secs, mins, hours, days, weeks, months, years later?

It is said that Past is best left in the past. I believe in the same too but at times past returns with a force that the sheer force of it knocks you down. You have washed your hands of it, you want to forget it, you don't want anything to do with it yet it won't leave you!

To live happily in the present("a gift") one should forget one's past ("history"), not wonder of one's tomorrow ("mystery") but no matter we can't help thinking of our tomorrow(s) and our history(s).

So I guess our past, present and future are all interlinked and as much as we try to break the link we can't(the link is much stronger)!.

So relive the 'Past', mix it together 'Today' and take it forward to a new 'Tomorrow!'???

N.B: The work of my "ever thinking" mind!( :-) )

WHY M I LIKE THIS? (or for that matter why is my life different?)

Did you ever come across situations where your heart says it shouldn't be a problem (makes you happy) but your brain gives you 1001 reasons that it's wrong and problems are gonna accompany?

Did you experience situations where everything falls into perfect place (you feel nothing has felt so right until now)?

Did things happen according to you, your wants and your wishes?( in the initial days?). If so why must things turn opposite as days go by?

If things are not meant to be they say it will never be (I quite agree too) but why does it feel so so right and why does things fall into right places then?

Why must one get hurt and keep feeling the pain (if you know the hurt feeling is not permanent)?

Why can't situations remain the same? Why can't the same right feelings prevail throughout? (I so hate these whys)

Why must one's life change in the blink of an eye (does it change in such a short while)?

Why am I unable to change things, my thoughts, my wants, my wishes?

Why am I always at the crossroads of life? (I take the most likely (good) path and in the end why does this very good path prove wrong?

Why can't I take the right path? (Don't I have powers over myself; my thoughts, wishes?)

If and only if I had not taken that path (the supposed right path)

Why can't I decide and decide well? (I know I have to include family's decisions too)

Yet again my page is filled up with the Whys and Ifs of my life. Life would have been much simpler, easier and happier if the Whys and Ifs doesn't exist in this world!

Sigh! My life is different ( Is it from you all?)

♥ K